i think im going crazy.

somehow i think im on the verge of a mental breakdown or smth

today chen shu took my water bottle then she came and asked me if i could let her drink some water. then i realised that m bottle was missing then i panicked like siao cuz i loved my water bottle a lot. then chen shu started laughing because she took my water bottle and all then i shouted at her and kicked her real hard in the shin .

seriously i havent kicked her this hard before. and then i was so angry for some reason tears began to well in my eyes. darn that was so embarrassing.

i think i cried like 5 + times today . once i thought of my losing my water bottle i began to cry .
then i told faithe about what happened then i started crying again . then i thought about other sad stuff and began to cry again .

the worse thing of all was that i din mean to do that to her or what. it just came involuntarily.

i hate this.

i duno whats wrong with me. it just seems like problems are just never ending and mayb i have kept my emotions so long in my heart that i just had to let them out today.

my apologies to chen shu. if u ever read this. i reali din mean it.